Everything is dying: the cats,the dogs --- the people. Only birds live because they have the sky. Where there are entryways, there are stones. Walls are wretched gaping mouths to potential enemy lines. It was a sniper that got my sister and struck my mother, picked them out as they ran with water for the thirsty in their hands. Is this what fate looks like? The bus is on loan from the king of Jordan. He would not send his men, but he would send a bus for the thousands fleeing. I board the bus and take a seat in the middle, in case it blows up at the front or back. My brother Adel is racing down the street. Don’t leave me, he is yelling, his face caked with dirt and blood. He is all I have left. In his hands he holds a bag of bread. Women lay over rubble in their thobes like dead moths. Silence catches its breath between the sting of bombs that hit my heart.
I used to love lamp light; the moon of the studious in university windows overlooking commerce and industry. I used to admire prophet like professors anointing the ignorant with prose of peace. Why do we leave? Because we must, if we wish to put our eyes on the heavens and claim a spot to call our own on this earth. I want to live. I want children to remind me of what happiness and joy sounds like because in these wars, we are robbed of everything, but hope.
July 31, 2020
Eid ul-Adha (Festival of Sacrifice) has come with its gifts amongst all the difficulties this beautiful earth is facing.
"Remember GOD Most High always gives us
Enough happiness to keep us sweet.
Enough trials to keep us strong.
Enough sorrow to keep us human.
Enough hope to keep us happy.
Enough failure to keep us humble.
Enough success to keep us eager.
Enough friends to give us comfort.
Enough enthusiasm to make us look forward.
Enough wealth to meet our needs.
Enough determination to make our each day a better day than the last.
What we need to do is -- stop complaining and fill our hearts with gratitude. .Allah The Most High has guaranteed. "If you are grateful, I will grant you increase;" Continue to recite this prayer: اَللَّهُمَّ إِنَّكَ عَفْوٌ تٌحِبٌّ العَفْوَ فَأَعْفَوْ عَنِّي. Oh Allah! You are most forgiving, you love to forgive, so forgive me.